I work full-time, and make a decent wage, which fulfills my inner strong, secure, independent woman. I have been with my husband for seven years, which should prove that I’m lovable (at least bearable). I have four small children (the oldest is 5) which proves my fertility. I have a bachelor’s and master’s degree which should sufficiently prove my intelligence. Why then do I find myself so unsatisfied from time to time? With secure employment, beautiful children and a hard working husband, shouldn’t I be ecstatic with life?
I guess I find myself facing what everyone else faces at some point during this lifetime. I certainly wouldn’t call it a mid-life crisis (I hope that I have more than just 33 more years on this planet). I also wouldn’t attempt to “shake things up” to see what falls out. At this point it’s my theory that after spending the last 6 years either pregnant or nursing, I feel like I’m drowning in my own life. I am so proud of my babies and I spend quite a bit of time making sure they have plenty of learning resources as well as talking to them about their learning. I am so very blessed by their presence, but this motherhood thing can be tough.
Motherhood is a 365/24/7 job. You are not paid in dollars, but in kisses, snuggles, and stained blouses. You cease becoming a woman and become _________’s mom. Your identity is mommy, wife, and whatever your job is.
I believe that what women want is for the person who they love hold their face, look them in the eye and say “You’re an amazing woman, and I love you.” (did I mention that we’d like this on a daily basis? 🙂 )